My Personal Journey Toward Purpose

A long time ago…. it was the early 90’s.. seems like a lifetime ago, but really only about 25 or so years has passed. I began a journey. A journey I needed to embark on.
You see, up until that point, I felt like I was not capable of choosing my own path. And, until then, I had not attempted to choose my own path in my life. I had pretty much gone whichever way the wind blew. At the mercy of others in my life.
I allowed myself to be swayed by the whims of the people I thought I loved. I didn’t know what love was, so I thought I loved them.
I’m not even sure I really liked them.
But they seemed to like me and hanging out with me so I did what they wanted. You see, I believed that no one liked me. I believed that no one loved me. I believed a lot of lies back then.

The journey I started then, began with a book called “Simple Abundance”. It was a book of daily devotions to help you find the abundance and the simple beauty and joy in life. For me, it was life changing! It was not a Christian based book, but that didn’t matter to me. I knew who God was. I have always known who God was. I just didn’t yet KNOW God.
In one of the devotional days, I don’t know which one or what prompted it, but I saw a picture in my imagination of myself. I was skinny, undernourished, clothes hanging on me, my hair was stringy and unkept. I had huge glasses that covered my sad looking face. I was in what looked like a cave. There was a huge boulder in the room and I could only walk around it. The boulder was there because I had walked around and around it so many times that I wore a path in the room.
It was how I felt and how I carried myself. My core beliefs.
You could call that my “Pit”.
I am a bit out of order in my storytelling because I am telling you the pit I found myself in first. I am not telling you the call and quest on my life, because I was not yet aware of it. But I would be soon.
Later on, I invited Jesus into my heart. That was the natural next step in my journey. Why? Because when you are looking for God, you will find Him. Some people mistake that for lots of other things or even gods. But the truth is, God wants you to find Him and He does lots of things to help you along your journey. You have to be open to the idea that the God of the universe, is a supernatural God and He does speak to us in various ways. And, remember, He Loves you. He always wants what is best for you.
Along the way in my journey as I healed, I lost that look of myself. Instead, God showed me how He sees me. A beautiful strong, warrior Princess! I had on a long, medieval type gown that was royal blue with some gold trim. My hair was long. My face was serious but looking ahead into the future. No glasses needed anymore. I could see without them.
In God’s eyes, I am strong, beautiful and mighty.
I started then to see myself as that as well. I began to grow in confidence in who I am. God’s princess.
A couple of years ago, I started on a new journey. Realizing that my last few kids were almost done with their schooling, I started to take a journey. It was my turn to find my purpose.
Now- I have nothing against women who work outside of the home. I did off and on throughout my parenting years. But, I always was looking into “what I wanted to be when I grew up.” In reality, that meant, when the kids grew up. I never had time to pursue my own career because I was raising kids or working to help make ends meet. No time for schooling or training. But I have learned a lot along the way in lots of other ways.
I am on a journey to find what God is leading me to do. I stepped away from counseling others for a time. In my journey, I realized that what I would really like to do is help others find their purpose. I want people, women especially, to be set free to do what God has called them to do! Last year I saw myself jogging. For the last couple of years, I have been “running the race”…

“Do you not know that in a race all the runners run [their very best to win], but only one receives the prize? Run [your race] in such a way that you may seize the prize and make it yours!”
‭‭1 Corinthians‬ ‭9:24‬ ‭AMP‬‬
“Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses [who by faith have testified to the truth of God’s absolute faithfulness], stripping off every unnecessary weight and the sin which so easily and cleverly entangles us, let us run with endurance and active persistence the race that is set before us,”
‭‭Hebrews‬ ‭12:1‬ ‭AMP‬‬

https://www.bible.com

This year? I am full on RUNNING!!
I don’t know yet why that is but I know I see myself RUNNING.
I am moving in my purpose now. I am excited to be able to help others find their purpose, achieve their goals, and get on their own journey toward wholeness!! Body, Soul and Spirit! That is the true call and quest for my life. I am on a journey to help others achieve their goals and find their purpose!

If I can help you in any way, please message me. I would love to help you on your own journey. Please note, that my journey started 25 years ago. It takes some time. But- your journey doesn’t have to take as long as mine has. Let me help you start to see yourself as God sees you!

Blessings!

Vicki