Are You Stuck Looking at Your Rubble??

Last week I saw a very real picture of my rubble. I looked around and saw all the messes everywhere. My list of things that need to get done is long. Every day I am adding to my lists. Not taking away, not checking off the boxes. I was stuck looking at my rubble. Not my half-done wall. (or kitchen.)

Yep. I had a little pity party and allowed myself to get overwhelmed.

And then…

Look at the Rubble:

The next day. Yes. The very next day. I attended a Bible study on Nehemiah chapter 4. Funny how God directs you to exactly what you need sometimes, isn’t it?? It happens to me all the time.

Anyways, if you aren’t familiar with this part of the story, as I wasn’t, here it is. In a nutshell, Nehemiah was sent, after a time of prayer, to rebuild the city of Jerusalem. The King gave him all he needed for his passage to Jerusalem. He arrived in the city and got the people working. Some refused to do the work. Some decided to throw out accusations and threats. (I’m sure you are familiar with those kinds. aren’t we all??!!)

Here is the passage I am referring to specifically:

“So we built the wall and the entire wall was joined together to half its height, for the people had a heart to work. But when Sanballat, Tobiah, the Arabs, the Ammonites, and the Ashdodites heard that the repair of the walls of Jerusalem went on, and that the breaches were being closed, they were very angry. They all conspired together to come and to fight against Jerusalem, and to cause a disturbance in it. But we prayed to our God, and because of them we set up a guard against them day and night. Then [the leaders of] Judah said, “The strength of the burden bearers is failing, And there is much rubble; We ourselves are unable To rebuild the wall.””
‭‭Nehemiah‬ ‭4:6-10‬ ‭AMP‬‬
https://www.bible.com/1588/neh.4.6-10.amp

Pay Attention to the first line of this passage; “the entire wall was joined together to half its height”. The wall at this point, in chapter 4 of a book 13 chapters long, was half done!! These people, most of them not skilled in construction, got that far on the building of a wall and removing 100 years of rubbish in a relatively short time. The wall around their city was HALF DONE… and then we see this line at the end, “The strength of the burden bearers is failing. And there is MUCH RUBBLE; we ourselves are unable to rebuild the wall.” 

The wall was HALF DONE

The people who spoke those words were the leaders of Judah. Then there are the people, leaders, throwing out threats and accusations. There was a lot of work to do. 100 years of rubbish thrown on top of the rubble from the wall that had been there. The wall had to be rebuilt, but first, a lot of garbage had to be removed. And yet….

The wall was HALF DONE!

People not trained in building walls have completed much of the work. The previous chapter listed many of the people and their occupations and no one listed was a wall builder as their occupation. There were priests, a goldsmith and, perfumers listed. A few nobles. But mostly, just ordinary people rebuilding the wall in the areas where they lived.

I’m sure by now they were tired. They worked long hours- from before sunrise til long after sunset. The people with Nehemiah, it says, didn’t even take off their clothes to sleep. They had their weapons with them at all times in case of attacks.

But again….. THE WALL WAS HALF DONE

And that is exactly my mindset last week. We started on our project here in the house on January 23rd. Last week, I fell into some discouragement- On April 22nd. Exactly 3 months into the 6 months I had decided I could live in this construction zone.

We are literally, halfway there. Maybe a little less. Likely, it won’t take another 3 months to get the counters, sink, dishwasher and flooring done. It could take that long to get the house back into order, however.

I fell into looking at what is NOT DONE rather than what IS DONE. I looked at my “rubbish” and saw what I have NOT DONE rather than what I HAVE DONE.

We have done a lot in this house.

Looking at my own Rubbish…….

This week, I am looking at things differently. I learned the lesson about the house, but now I am looking at my life. I have been known to continually look at what I am NOT rather than what I AM.

Do you get what I mean??

I mean, in my life I have learned a lot of stuff. I have done a LOT of stuff. But, I still feel like I am not enough. Some of that imposter syndrome again, I know. I am gifted in lots of areas. That is the truth. But I fall into the lie sometimes, that I am still not enough.

Maybe you do too.

My wall is HALF DONE!!

I have learned to recognize it, but this week, I was challenged to really look at some areas of my life. What part of my “Wall” have I already built?? Am I Halfway there? Am I finished in some areas??

I am still in the process of exploring that for myself. I think it will take some time because I really want to learn the lesson well.

How can I help you in that process?? Are you stuck looking at all your “Rubbish”?? All of the things you have “always done”?? Maybe you are ready to start looking at your life and seeing your rubbish for what it is.. 100 years of garbage that needs to be cleared away.

Are looking at your half built wall and getting discouraged?? How about looking at your wall and rethinking things? Look at what you HAVE DONE. You are further along than you think!!

Let’s talk…..

If you want to talk more about coaching, Emotion Code, getting free from “imposter syndrome” or just want to remove the rubbish in your life, contact me. We can talk via FaceTime on Messenger or on the phone from anywhere in the world!! Of course, we can talk in person too. I would love to help you!! And I am honored to be gifted to do so.

Blessings,

Vicki